Archive for November, 2011

There’s a lie that will fight you. It acts like it loves you. It might seem like a good thing. You might feel like you have control. It might feel like you’re finally getting everything right. But watch out, because skinny will lie to you. She doesn’t love you. She’s not trying to make you beautiful. You may not see it now, but if you follow skinny all the way through, she will make you sick, and she will make you skinny, but you’ll never know it. She will tell you aren’t every time. More people have the mentality of an eating disorder, who couldn’t be diagnosed because of their weight. You don’t have to be dying of starvation to have been abused by the lies of skinny. If you’ve ever felt that you’re too big to be loved, you eat too much to be pure, that you aren’t beautiful because you aren’t “skinny,” you have been lied to by skinny. Skinny can’t complete you, neither can food. Diets won’t save you. They’re lying. These things can be good, but if you worship them, they will take you in alive. Don’t let your diet make you a slave. Don’t let skinny make you a slave. In Jesus there is freedom, there is love. He will help you be healthy in every possible way. He makes you beautiful. his control can be trusted.

The only one who I am willing to serve, who is worthy to be served, is Jesus Christ. He will never abuse you. He will set you free. John 8:35-36 “Now a slave has no permanent place in the family, but a son belongs to it forever.  So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.” When you are a slave to skinny, or another one of the lies, you will never be good enough for them. You will never be in the family. Satan doesn’t want to accept you, and these are his lies. Satan wants to turn you away from the truth. The truth about freedom, love, redemption, grace, and acceptance. The truth about Jesus. The truth that you are BEAUTIFUL, that you are WORTH IT, that you are LOVED. When you submit your self to Christ, the son, He will set you free from darkness, from the cages of bone you live in, from the leash of food you are chained to, from the feeling that you have to get on another diet to make yourself presentable, to make yourself good enough. This MINDSET will be gone when you surrender to Christ. I used to think that Jesus freedom meant I had to constantly fight these things in my life. When I surrendered to Him completely, the mindset was gone. I was FREE! I didn’t feel like I had to be skinny anymore, I didn’t believe that skinny felt good. I felt ALIVE, I had ENERGY, I had JOY. Things that SKINNY NEVER LET ME HAVE.

Being a slave to Jesus is the only way to be free; he is true enough to be served in every aspect. Nothing else will do. Nothing else is enough. Skinny will never be enough. Food will never be enough. Health can’t save you. Jesus makes you beautiful. Jesus fills you up. Jesus saves you. He’s the only one who can forgive your sins. He’s the only one who can really comfort you. He’s the only one who completes you and makes you perfect. He’s the One. And SKINNY IS A LIE.

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When you go as far to get as thin as those girls in those thinspiration pictures you’ve given up everything to be skinny.

I know girls are willing. I see the posters, I hear the talk. You’ve been cheated. Skinny will give you nothing in return. Skinny will lure you, lie to you, and cheat you.

Skinny will cheat you out of:

  • Being strong enough to do your favorite things- You will be too weak to accomplish things.
  • Having close relationships- Skinny dominates and leaves no room for healthy friendships or relationships
  • Being honest- You’ve been lied too, and somewhere deep down, you know something isn’t right. You will lie to everyone you know. You will be paranoid.
  • Peace of mind- You will be obsessed with how you look. The fat you believe you have will drive you mad. It will make you feel sick.
  • Joy- You only see darkness.
  • Skinny will cheat you out of being you. All of the sudden your personality takes on something new and different and dark. Skinny becomes your identity, but gives nothing in return.
  • Life. – Skinny will consume you in every way possible. If you give everything to be skinny, you’re giving up your family, friends, hobbies, skinny becomes your religion, skinny owns your mind, your heart, your strength and your body. You will struggle to get any of it back, and it could kill you.

This is what lies behind those thinspiration pictures.

Starvation kills. Don’t let thinspiration make you believe that starvation can give you life.

Everyone gives themselves to something. We all have an obsession. And many of us feel empty. Our obsessions cannot satisfy, or we feel that we cannot satisfy them. I believe God, who is the founder and creator of the Universe, can satisfy. He is big enough to fill the void and He is true enough to fulfill us.

I couldn’t take my life back for myself. Skinny had too strong of a grasp on me. So I prayed that Jesus would take my life for himself. In that moment everything changed.

The Word of God is INSPIRING:

“‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind”- Luke 10:27

When you give yourself to Jesus instead of skinny:

  • You will have strength-  “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.”- Phillipians 4:13
  • You will have love not paranoia or obsession or fear- you will be able to be close to family, friends, and God
  • You will be able to stop telling lies- You become real. You will no longer be guarded by lies but by truth (which cannot crumble beneath you, it is a firm foundation).
  • You will have peace of mind- “And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”- Philippians 4:7. You will be guarded in your heart and mind from other lies that will try to tear you down and you will know the truth. That you are loved, that you are cherished, that you are worth it, that you can conquer, that God has called you and that you belong to Him and He will never harm you, but guard you.
  • You will be you. “Then the LORD God formed a man from the dust of the ground and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life, and the man became a living being.”- Genesis 2:7, “Is he not your Father, your Creator, who made you and formed you?”- Deauteronomy 32:6b. God made you exactly to be you. You will be more you in Christ, than you could ever be without him. He will give you the identity of being a treasure, of being innocent, of being strong, of being joyful, and of being YOU.
  • You will be given life:

” But now, this is what the LORD says— he who created you, Jacob, he who formed you, Israel: “Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine.”- Isaiah 43:1. God made you. Israel was a tribe God picked, and they did not follow his ways and yet he loved them. You’ve never gone too far for God. You have been redeemed. And your name, in the culture of the Bible is your identity, SPECIFICALLY YOU can belong to God, be yourself, and claim life.

“Because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit who gives life has set you free from the law of sin and death.”-Romans 8:2. This means that when you give your life to Jesus instead of skinny (which will lead you to death) he will give you more life. He will set you free from the prisons of your eating disorder.

#skinnyisalie #truthwillsetyoufree

Stop being cheated, start being inspired

-Merry

Sometimes it seems like you look in the mirror and all you see is flaws. Your body seems to take on any mistake you make. Sometimes the person who is hardest to forgive, is yourself. You know you, you live with you everyday. You see all your flaws. See more than are there. But you never see your beauty. I see it. I see it when I look into your eyes, blurred by lack of food, swimming with sorrow, anxious with worry, pain of feeling unloved-inadequate-ugly. I see it everyday, in so many faces. You don’t believe you are beautiful. When I look past it all, into who you really are, I see someone strong, but someone vulnerable. Some one beautiful.

Hatred on yourself makes it hard for you to believe the truth when people love you. It makes it hard to love them back because you doubt their ability to commit to you. Why would they stick around when there are so many flaws in you. Maybe they see something you don’t. You are beautiful.

Mirrors can tell lies.

It’s your perception of your reflection. That leaves a lot of room for error. You don’t see you without all those misconceptions, without all those perceptions, reflections. You’re not even seeing the real you.

God does.

That could be scary for you. To think that an all-knowing God, would see the real you. A Natalie Grant song, written during her battle with Bulimia, says: “But you see the real me, hiding in my skin, broken from within, unveil me, completely, I’m loosening my grasp, there’s no need to mask my frailty, you see the real me.” And he still loves you enough to die for you. The hatred you have for yourself is the biggest lie of all. If God is truth, and he says you are beautiful, then beauty is really yours to keep.

Don’t define yourself by a number on a scale, by a number of wrongs, by a number of calories, or miles, or mistakes. You’re worth it. You have been given worth beyond imagine. Don’t sell yourself short by believing and acting on lies you hear, or see, or are told. If you have been told you are ugly, or unloved, or unworthy, or unclean. You’ve been lied to.

Take back the truth, there’s enough hate in the world. Don’t hate yourself.

Real Me: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WpIFjdutQjY

I began taking bites of this popular lie about skinny when I was really young. I kind of always believed I was fat. I have never been close to over-weight in my life, but the lie began to grow. At 16 I got a job working in fast-food. This was perfect, I slowly began to stop eating. I’d promised myself I would as soon as it was possible. So the lie became my belief and my mantra. I would be skinny. The skinnier I got the more I wanted it. It was never enough for me.

I almost felt like someone was making me do these things. Someone was driving me towards being skinny. It was uncontrollable. The more I believed the lies, the more I lied about my life. I didn’t know the truth anymore.

Disillusioned by the lies I drove myself downward into depression. Partially I wanted control, partially I wanted purity. The purity was part of the perfection. Food became the impurities. I would go for days without eating. I lived off of these highs and I lived for them. But the truth of the matter was, I was so dead. I had no energy, no joy, no life. My spirit was dark.

Once everyone around me knew what I was fighting, I really did begin to fight against my eating disorder. I wanted to be better… kind of. But I was still living in so many of the lies. The lie that I had to be skinny was the surface lie, the one on the bottom is that I was unclean… I was trying to purify myself through this. I developed bulimia. Bulimia always felt dirty to me, but it was getting the same result.

For a long time I felt like I was in control of what I was eating, what I wasn’t eating and my disorder. I thought I had the power. I didn’t. The disorder had the power. I had given up the power a long time ago and I had become a slave to the lies of SKINNY. At some points I felt like I was hearing voices, telling me I had to. At other points I felt like I was doing things so far outside my control and I didn’t know how to stop them.

It was a struggle. I had given so much of myself to these lies. They were eating me from the inside. I still wasn’t skinny enough. I felt like no one understood, and no one recognized. Part of me just wanted to be skinny enough so someone could say I had a real problem. I wanted free. I wanted someone to say I was a slave and there was a way out. I wanted someone to say what I was feeling was hurting me. I wanted out, but I didn’t know the way.

“Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.”– John 14:6. I struggled between Jesus and my eating disorders for 2 years. I had good weeks, and bad weeks, I still felt like I was running. I didn’t really feel the kind of freedom I wanted.  I also didn’t believe real freedom was possible. Someone had told me this would always be my struggle. This was as free as it was ever going to get for me.

John 8:35-36 “Now a slave has no permanent place in the family, but a son belongs to it forever.  So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.”  The Bible says differently. The Bible said I could really be free. One night I was in a worship service. Everyone around me was touched by the spirit, everyone around me was free in Christ, they were crying, they were laughing they were overwhelmed by God. I wanted it. I wanted it more than anything. I realized in that moment that God was more important, that his truth was truer than everything I had been living, and that he was life. I got to my knees and I told him to take it all, that I was done. And in the moment I was freed.

I accepted the life Jesus had for me, and this time I threw off all the chains I had on before. I have NEVER struggled with eating disorders again. My freedom is real.

With my eating disorder I was paranoid and disturbed. With Christ I am fearless. With my eating disorder I was dark and without life. With Christ I am joyful and exuberant. With my eating disorder I was falling apart and I felt impure. With Christ I am complete and walking in purity. With my eating disorder I was a slave. With Christ I am free.

My life is changed. I will NEVER be the same.

What would it be like if your peace and comfort lasted longer than the food you ate? What would it be like if you weren’t making blood sacrifices in your own pain? What would it be like if you weren’t following the dark whisper telling you you had to be skinnier, that you had to do this, or that or exercise? What would it be like if you didn’t have to work so hard to save yourself? What would it be like if you could start with a clean record? What would it be like if you weren’t obsessed with food, health, image, weight, beauty?

There is freedom from the living hell of eating disorders. The kind of freedom in which you don’t worry about the things you worry about now.

Skinny is a lie. Jesus is the WAY, the TRUTH, and the LIFE.

Control Is an Illusion

Posted: November 9, 2011 in Uncategorized
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#thenewcampaign

Posted: November 9, 2011 in Uncategorized

Everywhere I see the “thinspo” I see posters that have weight loss “inspiration.” Many of the girls in the pictures don’t look inspiring. They are pictured with words about how being skinny will make you perfect, being skinny will make you happy. None of these girls look happy, many of them are ridiculously bony and have scrawled sharpie on their bodies saying “fatty” “Imperfect” “ugly”. These girls aren’t happy.

Skinny is a lie.

The other day I was telling my mom that I really hate these posters on pinterest. She told me to start a new campaign. I hope my campaign will be as influential as the thinspo campaign. I’m calling it #thenewcampaign and we’re going with the catchy line “Skinny is a lie.”

Skinny will not make you happy, it won’t make you beautiful, and it won’t make you perfect. The skinny you see in magazines, on pinterest, advertised is rarely healthy. Skinny, if followed through, gives birth to death. I recently saw a picture of a girl pinned that I had seen before. This time I saw her pinned with the words “inspiration” the last time I saw her picture it was in a story her sister wrote, the girl had recently passed away from starvation with the photo was shot.

TODAY YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!

The skinny lie will only make you unhappy, feel imperfect, hate yourself. I believed the lie. I was very sick for a long time. I was paranoid about people, about food, about everything. These lies eat you up from the inside. Don’t put faith in SKINNY!