On Self-Hatred

Posted: November 28, 2011 in beauty, don't hate, Mirrors lie, real me, uglyisalie
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Sometimes it seems like you look in the mirror and all you see is flaws. Your body seems to take on any mistake you make. Sometimes the person who is hardest to forgive, is yourself. You know you, you live with you everyday. You see all your flaws. See more than are there. But you never see your beauty. I see it. I see it when I look into your eyes, blurred by lack of food, swimming with sorrow, anxious with worry, pain of feeling unloved-inadequate-ugly. I see it everyday, in so many faces. You don’t believe you are beautiful. When I look past it all, into who you really are, I see someone strong, but someone vulnerable. Some one beautiful.

Hatred on yourself makes it hard for you to believe the truth when people love you. It makes it hard to love them back because you doubt their ability to commit to you. Why would they stick around when there are so many flaws in you. Maybe they see something you don’t. You are beautiful.

Mirrors can tell lies.

It’s your perception of your reflection. That leaves a lot of room for error. You don’t see you without all those misconceptions, without all those perceptions, reflections. You’re not even seeing the real you.

God does.

That could be scary for you. To think that an all-knowing God, would see the real you. A Natalie Grant song, written during her battle with Bulimia, says: “But you see the real me, hiding in my skin, broken from within, unveil me, completely, I’m loosening my grasp, there’s no need to mask my frailty, you see the real me.” And he still loves you enough to die for you. The hatred you have for yourself is the biggest lie of all. If God is truth, and he says you are beautiful, then beauty is really yours to keep.

Don’t define yourself by a number on a scale, by a number of wrongs, by a number of calories, or miles, or mistakes. You’re worth it. You have been given worth beyond imagine. Don’t sell yourself short by believing and acting on lies you hear, or see, or are told. If you have been told you are ugly, or unloved, or unworthy, or unclean. You’ve been lied to.

Take back the truth, there’s enough hate in the world. Don’t hate yourself.

Real Me: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WpIFjdutQjY

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